Life happens and will pass you by because she is not committed to anyone. If you allow it, life will hold you hostage in a constant state of doing that you never embrace being who you were born to be. For many years, I heard so many excuses and reasons for not achieving that I grew comfortable lying in bed with complacency and watching life serve as a mistress to others while doing what she does without a promise, a kiss or a commitment. While living in the constant state of doing, I stopped dreaming, stopped wanting and stopped hoping to achieve more than my eyes had ever seen and my ears had ever heard.
Instead, I started listening to others and started to believe that I was nothing more than a person who woke up in the morning, went to work, paid bills, went to church and used my Saturdays to escape from my "reality." But then something happened that opened up emotional wounds that I had never allowed to heal. And the pain from those wounds being ripped open and uncovered was so severe that it triggered a seemingly unnatural craving for more than the life I could ever give myself. While I tried to soothe the pain by attempting to create an alter-reality of my own happiness, I could never achieve the possibility of the impossible. But I was relentless and driven to cover up the pain as I had done many times before. I started focusing on career achievements, goals of accumulating more certifications, material possessions and acceptance by others but none of those things soothed the pain. I even tried to soothe the pain by dulling it with one child and then another, creating social groups and taking on more responsibility in organizations but none of those things helped soothe the pain.
What I later found was the attainment of physical possessions did not dull the pain because my body was not crying out for more. The education and recognition did not dull the pain because my mind wasn't crying out for more. Instead, the pain was caused by an inner craving that was lying deep down on the inside because my spirit was crying out for more.
After awakening from my dream-like trance of doing, I began to seek to nurture the seeds of joy, peace, happiness and greatness that was planted in me before I was ever a twinkling in my mother or father's youthful eyes. As I grow wiser, I am learning that the craving for more is only satisfied when I seek to embrace more of God's spirit and to seek His truth. Now that I am awake, I discovered that I was created on purpose by God not just to do unto others, but to become more, receive more, give more and to seek more because each day I am restored for.
As an encouragement to you, are you living your best life as a human being or are you still satisfied with the constant state of doing? If you are awake, have you awakened another sister or brother? Be encouraged that you can live your blessed life by pursuing your dreams and to feed the seeds of joy, peace, happiness and greatness that placed inside of you.
Toni Moore, Esquire is a teacher, motivator and the Founding President of Diva Moment, Inc., and organization that encourages women and girls to live dynamic lives passionately on purpose. - @ToniDivamoment
Toni Moore, Esq.
Toni is an attorney and business coach who is committed to helping women uplevel their success.
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